Drama Queen

History HAS been made.

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 20:09:12 GMT

Obama is going to be President.

This is very exciting.

I voted Obama. But my state is red, it went to McCain. Haha, but that dont matter.

OBAMA WON THE COUNTRY IN A LANDSLIDE NONE THE LESS.

"if all the world is perfect I would only ever wanna see your scars"

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 06:36:53 GMT

I am 28 now.
I lost my job on October first, due to corporate cut backs.
My social life has exploded since losing my job. I have been out of the house every day since that day.

My birthday was last Tuesday. I had a good day. My dad took me out to eat. My mom got me stuff I really wanted. So all in all it was a great day.
The day after my birthday was my lay off. Which is a was a majorly sucky thing.

I have been reading the Twilight series of books by Stephenie Meyer. I am on book four right now. The last one of the series.

Saturday the fourth we went out and celebrated my niece's eighth birthday. We went to a market place down town. It was disappointing really. Nothing for the kids to do. After that we went bowling. It was fun to watch the kids bowl. I am not a good bowler. After bowling we went to our favorite Mexican restraunt.

Six weeks

Sat, 16 Aug 2008 13:46:56 GMT

I have not been to this journal in six weeks. Right now I am just waiting on a word from my insurance company about my gastric bypass.

Watching The Closer a lot it is my favorite show right now.

As usual nothing else new

J, a sentence about three weeks ago and that was it. I thinking it is time I give up on him.

I dont know how long it has been since I updated.

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 06:53:53 GMT

Still trudging along with my bypass stuff. I found out last week I need to get a stress test. Im not to excited about that. But it needs to be done.

I am hoping to have surgery in August but depending on how long it takes me to get my stress test I dont know.

Nothing else really new. Work is slow.

I am planning on buying used car next year. Like Feb. Either an Impala or a Malibu from Chevy.

Sexy Tori....<3

Wed, 21 May 2008 19:35:55 GMT

"bring me sugar"

Wed, 21 May 2008 17:11:30 GMT

My pych eval is next week for my gastric bypass surgery. I am kinda nervous about it cause of my behavioral health history.

My sleep study is the 30th at ten pm.

My friend H has a "new" guy in her life. He lives in another state so the likelyhood of them meeting is very very very slim. Im happy she has some one to talk to.

I miss J. I have not talked to him in over a month.

I should be cleaning my room. But I am killing time on the puter.

"but we lost it"

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 13:14:59 GMT

I actually talked to J last week. He has been so busy we rarely talk anymore. I miss him, but my heart is ok. I am filling it with more than just J.

This week end is the womens' expo in Arizona. Saturday we are going to that. Sunday we maybe be going to the Titanic artifact exhibition.

two weeks

Sat, 05 Apr 2008 13:03:25 GMT

Lets see I went for my pre evaluation with the weight loss surgeon on the 31 of March.
Than on April 3 I went to my PA to get scripts for blood work and my bone density test and abdominal x ray. *my PA is awesome by the way*
April 4th I got my bone density scan and my abdominal x ray.

Friday I also went to go see a movie. I saw The Other Bolen(spelling) Girl. Very good movie. Natalie Portman and Scarlett Johansen where wonderfull. Eric Bana played a very good King. Very handsome too.

I bought season six of Law & Order SVU for only 33 dollars. Normally like fourty dollars. I also bought Sweeny Todd, Mona Lisa Smile, and What Women Want.

Gumdrops and saturdays.

Wed, 19 Mar 2008 06:30:05 GMT

So I had an appt. with one surgeon on the 21st of this month. But upon going to their seminar they wanted 900 dollars at the pre eval and another thousand before the surgeon. Beyond that the two surgeons works in tandem and one of them is not on my insurance. The out of pocket costs for the un-insured surgeon was over six or seven grande. I made an appt with another surgeon. That appt is on the 31st.
I have talked to one of his patients who is a nurse at the hospital I work at. He had the lap band done and said nothing but good things about this new surgeon I am going to. He said their are no hidden fee's or anything just the co pays, insurance covered the rest. ***yeah***. I will be having the surgery at my hospital if I stick with this surgeon I see on the 31 st.

This Friday I go to my PA for some blood work hopefully my cholestrol will down enought to make my PA happy.

Saturday I am going back to the Ren Festival. I can't wait to see Tartanic agian. The lead guy of Tartanic; Adrian is his name, gave me a kiss on the cheek. Melts.
Check them out. www.tartanic.net They are very good looking too. And wear kilts and go shirtless a lot also.

I cannot contain my happiness.

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 16:49:56 GMT

I got an appointment with the weight loss surgeon for March 21st. I am so excited and happy

"Talula, Talula"

Tue, 26 Feb 2008 17:10:27 GMT

I went and worked out today. I went back to Curves. I got a good work out.

I also opened a new back account.

Mon, 25 Feb 2008 05:49:09 GMT

I am in a totally different play emotionally than I was last year at this time. This time last year I had just been released from a behavioral health hospital. It has been over a year since I last cut. I have had no desire to cut in a long time also.

songless Robin

Wed, 20 Feb 2008 12:45:57 GMT

I have pink eye agian. it hurts this time around. Like my actual eye ball hurts. last time it was just the skin around my eye.

I should of washed clothes and I did'nt.

"black mares and white horses"

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 12:47:06 GMT

Today was payday. Very nice. I gave my mom a check.

Yesterday was Valentines day and I did'nt get to talk to J. He must be on the road. I miss him terribely but I don't cry anymore.

Today I may brave it and go to Costco. I dont know if I need anything super sized right now though. Maybe just to Target to look for a lunch box and to Wally world to get my food for the week or so.

Bright red

Wed, 13 Feb 2008 12:45:19 GMT

That is the color I turned yesterday cause of my medication. Apparently it is just a side effect. And is not harmfull just bothersome. Well to me anyway.

I have been trying to enroll in my benefits and it turns out I have not been able to cause some one entered my birth date wrong. Now I only have two days to fill out my insurance. ((grumble))

"Kinky is using the feather, perverted is using the whole chicken"

Mon, 11 Feb 2008 09:13:17 GMT

My male friend P and I where talking about that today. What is perverted and what is kinky? That is what he told me in response to my question. I about died laughing. after talking to P I had a dream I had sex with him. Which kinda makes me feel guilty cause I am in love with some one else.

Nothing new.

Sun, 10 Feb 2008 05:20:30 GMT

I had pink eye last weekend.

I miss J.

Work is going good.

like I said nothing new

Soul mates seperated

Thu, 24 Jan 2008 21:38:34 GMT

I talked to J last night for like 3 hours. It broke my heart agian. I care for him still. I may even still love him...I dont know maybe my heart is protecting it's self.

Work is going good. It is different. I think I will like this new place.

Boe.

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 15:50:04 GMT

My cat who was fifteen years old passed away today. Her name was Boe.
I will miss her.

I went to Costco yesterday and only spend 100 dollars, excluding the 51 dollar memebership renewal. So I only spent 150 dollars at Costco. I got quite a bit of stuff. I got a lot of lunch stuff, because the cafe at this new hospital I am going to is not open at night.

"the truth lies between the first and 40th drink"

Fri, 11 Jan 2008 01:56:12 GMT

My car is fixed. I go pick her up tomorrow. It is starting to hit me I will never see J agian. I talked to H, my couselor today for a little bit. I had to tell her that I could not go to DBT alumi cause of my car. She really wanted me to go but I could'nt.

I am feeling better than I thought I would.

I have been watching A LOT of Tori. Tori can mend about anything.

"but we lost it"

Thu, 10 Jan 2008 05:03:49 GMT

I guess I am not starting the new year with a guy I love. He is moving to another state cause of his kids. Kids go first. I have always known I was second or third to his kids. But I did not think he would of moved.

I cried my eyes out last night. tonight I feel better.

My mom told me. "when one door closes another opens"

"are these kisses worth giving up"

Thu, 03 Jan 2008 15:02:40 GMT

J said he is going to move closer to me. That would be so perfect. I could see him so much than. I am so giddy happy at that news.

H bailed on me on New Year Eve. Since J was still in Colorado I was not able to spend it with him. H said it was not fair that I would have to pick her up and drop her off. H has never fucking cared before. Oh well I slept till midnight when the firecrackers woke me up. Than I watched some documentary called Jesus Camp. It was kinda scarey what they are teaching little kids in these Jesus Camps.

New year new love.

Mon, 31 Dec 2007 20:36:52 GMT

I am starting out the new year with a new guy. who I love dearly.

"She wore shiedo red..."

Sun, 30 Dec 2007 11:11:29 GMT

Xmas was good, was at my sister's house. We played Wii. I didnt make a haul but I never do. So it was was not a shock. I didnt really asked for anything. I wanted things that could not be bought. Like time with J. Which he is in Colorado agian, his kids bought him a plane ticket for xmas. So he is up there till the first of Jan. Hopefully I will see him Tuesday. But like everything else I don't get excited. Because if you get excited and it falls through it is a let down. Like I am not getting excited about the computer till it is in my house. I guess it is something I do to protect my feelings and myself. I think my medication helps me be sedate too. Not much bothers me these days. Some of it is my DBT skills. Radical acceptance is a good one and probably the most improtant one to learn, IMO.

I want a Wii now. Hopefully soon they wont be so hard to get or expensive.

For new years eve I was suppose to spend it with J, I am slightly disappointed but not mad at the whole thing. My friend H is going to be spending the night. My best friend S works. She is an EMT. So she gets to see all the drunks.

"thunder wishes it could be the snow"

Thu, 27 Dec 2007 21:54:03 GMT

Well the christmas time is over. I had fun over at my sister's. We had a turkey dinner with all the sides.

I am waiting on the final word on my job interview. Hopefully I will hear back today if not tomorrow.

I talked to J yesterday for like five hours. I miss those long conversations with him.

I am so tired.