Obama is going to be President.

This is very exciting.


I voted Obama. But my state is red, it went to McCain. Haha, but that dont matter.


OBAMA WON THE COUNTRY IN A LANDSLIDE NONE THE LESS.

mood: excited

I am 28 now.
I lost my job on October first, due to corporate cut backs.
My social life has exploded since losing my job. I have been out of the house every day since that day.

My birthday was last Tuesday. I had a good day. My dad took me out to eat. My mom got me stuff I really wanted. So all in all it was a great day.
The day after my birthday was my lay off. Which is a was a majorly sucky thing.

I have been reading the Twilight series of books by Stephenie Meyer. I am on book four right now. The last one of the series.

Saturday the fourth we went out and celebrated my niece's eighth birthday. We went to a market place down town. It was disappointing really. Nothing for the kids to do. After that we went bowling. It was fun to watch the kids bowl. I am not a good bowler. After bowling we went to our favorite Mexican restraunt.

mood: blah

I have not been to this journal in six weeks. Right now I am just waiting on a word from my insurance company about my gastric bypass.

Watching The Closer a lot it is my favorite show right now.

As usual nothing else new

J, a sentence about three weeks ago and that was it. I thinking it is time I give up on him.

mood: anxious

Still trudging along with my bypass stuff. I found out last week I need to get a stress test. Im not to excited about that. But it needs to be done.

I am hoping to have surgery in August but depending on how long it takes me to get my stress test I dont know.

Nothing else really new. Work is slow.

I am planning on buying used car next year. Like Feb. Either an Impala or a Malibu from Chevy.

mood: content

My pych eval is next week for my gastric bypass surgery. I am kinda nervous about it cause of my behavioral health history.

My sleep study is the 30th at ten pm.

My friend H has a "new" guy in her life. He lives in another state so the likelyhood of them meeting is very very very slim. Im happy she has some one to talk to.

I miss J. I have not talked to him in over a month.

I should be cleaning my room. But I am killing time on the puter.

mood: anxious

I actually talked to J last week. He has been so busy we rarely talk anymore. I miss him, but my heart is ok. I am filling it with more than just J.

This week end is the womens' expo in Arizona. Saturday we are going to that. Sunday we maybe be going to the Titanic artifact exhibition.

mood: geeky

Lets see I went for my pre evaluation with the weight loss surgeon on the 31 of March.
Than on April 3 I went to my PA to get scripts for blood work and my bone density test and abdominal x ray. *my PA is awesome by the way*
April 4th I got my bone density scan and my abdominal x ray.

Friday I also went to go see a movie. I saw The Other Bolen(spelling) Girl. Very good movie. Natalie Portman and Scarlett Johansen where wonderfull. Eric Bana played a very good King. Very handsome too.

I bought season six of Law & Order SVU for only 33 dollars. Normally like fourty dollars. I also bought Sweeny Todd, Mona Lisa Smile, and What Women Want.

mood: sleepy

So I had an appt. with one surgeon on the 21st of this month. But upon going to their seminar they wanted 900 dollars at the pre eval and another thousand before the surgeon. Beyond that the two surgeons works in tandem and one of them is not on my insurance. The out of pocket costs for the un-insured surgeon was over six or seven grande. I made an appt with another surgeon. That appt is on the 31st.
I have talked to one of his patients who is a nurse at the hospital I work at. He had the lap band done and said nothing but good things about this new surgeon I am going to. He said their are no hidden fee's or anything just the co pays, insurance covered the rest. ***yeah***. I will be having the surgery at my hospital if I stick with this surgeon I see on the 31 st.

This Friday I go to my PA for some blood work hopefully my cholestrol will down enought to make my PA happy.

Saturday I am going back to the Ren Festival. I can't wait to see Tartanic agian. The lead guy of Tartanic; Adrian is his name, gave me a kiss on the cheek. Melts.
Check them out. www.tartanic.net They are very good looking too. And wear kilts and go shirtless a lot also.

mood: bouncy tags: ren festival, tartanic, wls

I got an appointment with the weight loss surgeon for March 21st. I am so excited and happy

mood: ecstatic

I went and worked out today. I went back to Curves. I got a good work out.

I also opened a new back account.

I am in a totally different play emotionally than I was last year at this time. This time last year I had just been released from a behavioral health hospital. It has been over a year since I last cut. I have had no desire to cut in a long time also.

I have pink eye agian. it hurts this time around. Like my actual eye ball hurts. last time it was just the skin around my eye.

I should of washed clothes and I did'nt.

Today was payday. Very nice. I gave my mom a check.

Yesterday was Valentines day and I did'nt get to talk to J. He must be on the road. I miss him terribely but I don't cry anymore.

Today I may brave it and go to Costco. I dont know if I need anything super sized right now though. Maybe just to Target to look for a lunch box and to Wally world to get my food for the week or so.

mood: full music: Tori Amos

That is the color I turned yesterday cause of my medication. Apparently it is just a side effect. And is not harmfull just bothersome. Well to me anyway.

I have been trying to enroll in my benefits and it turns out I have not been able to cause some one entered my birth date wrong. Now I only have two days to fill out my insurance. ((grumble))

My male friend P and I where talking about that today. What is perverted and what is kinky? That is what he told me in response to my question. I about died laughing. after talking to P I had a dream I had sex with him. Which kinda makes me feel guilty cause I am in love with some one else.

mood: giddy

I had pink eye last weekend.

I miss J.

Work is going good.

like I said nothing new

I talked to J last night for like 3 hours. It broke my heart agian. I care for him still. I may even still love him...I dont know maybe my heart is protecting it's self.

Work is going good. It is different. I think I will like this new place.

My cat who was fifteen years old passed away today. Her name was Boe.
I will miss her.

I went to Costco yesterday and only spend 100 dollars, excluding the 51 dollar memebership renewal. So I only spent 150 dollars at Costco. I got quite a bit of stuff. I got a lot of lunch stuff, because the cafe at this new hospital I am going to is not open at night.

mood: bored music: Juarez_ Tori Amos tags: boe

My car is fixed. I go pick her up tomorrow. It is starting to hit me I will never see J agian. I talked to H, my couselor today for a little bit. I had to tell her that I could not go to DBT alumi cause of my car. She really wanted me to go but I could'nt.

I am feeling better than I thought I would.

I have been watching A LOT of Tori. Tori can mend about anything.

mood: blah